As an African women, I have discovered something within that I am so proud of..We are all entrepreneur and most of us are social entrepreneur. We know that when there is a need somewhere, it can be answered by acting. I am from the Cote d'Ivoire, and I can tell you one thing, the women in Cote d'Ivoire are real hustler, they are afraid of nothing, give them a gum and they will sell it. They always want to sell something, they always want to create something. Most of the time they will sell fried plantain (allocco) on the street with fried fish, or they will sell juices, extension hair... This spirit is all over in West Africa, from Gambia to Ghana, from Cote d'Ivoire to Mali, from Senegal to Nigeria. Those women are driven by the spirit of entrepreneur. What makes them social entrepreneurs is that they do what they do for their family, their community, to create an income that will break them out of poverty. That's the first reason they become social entrepreneur, it is not to become rich, it is to better their life and the life of others. Their success is completely different from the definition of success in the North. Success is to be able to give give more food to their children, (three meals a day), give them the opportunity to get an education and a chance to have a life without struggling, their success is to be able to send their children abroad to get a higher education, their success is to be able to buy cloth for their children. Their success is not to buy the last Mercedes, or buy the third vacation houses, or go on a vacation to the Bahamas. Those things are not their motivation, their motivation comes from their children, the laugh of their children in the house, looking at their children enjoying the meals that she just cooked from their hard labor....
As an entrepreneur or social entrepreneur, we have to be able to define success,it will motivates us to keep on going through this journey of Life.
Friday, October 15, 2010
Being an entrepreneur..What does it really means? Part 1
I have been calling myself a social entrepreneur for the past year now. What does it really means to be a social entrepreneur. From the Wikipedia "A social entrepreneur is someone who recognizes a social problem and uses entrepreneurial principles to organize, create, and manage a venture to make social change (a social venture). Whereas a business entrepreneur typically measures performance in profit and return, a social entrepreneur focuses on creating social capital."
I am a social entrepreneur, someone who believes that one can change his/her life by helping other change their life. But you may ask "How can you help other if you cannot even help yourself". That's where the spirit of social entrepreneur takes place. By helping other, you are helping yourself. How is it so? There are questions that you may not understand in your life, there are things that you are lacking, those are the same things that many others just like you might lack or do not understand. By helping others, you learn from others point of you, you listen to them, you try to understand why they are where they are and it helps you discover where you stand and the next steps that you can take to improve your business, your life. Basically, it is others who are helping you by talking to you and you being available to listen.
As a social entrepreneur, what motivates is the burning desire to be a part of a movement, or change. We want to change the way we live, the way we "think". What do I mean by changing the way we think.I mean, we want everybody to think that they can achieve anything they desire to. It is about what you have inside. I am sure many of you have heard or read the book "Think and grow rich", or "As a man think". Those two books focus on the mind, saying that "We are what we think". If you think you cannot guess what you will not be able to, until you change your mind set and realize that you can. You can do it all, We can accomplish it all, we just have to change the mind set of cannot,and switch it to the "Yes I can". You might be an entrepreneur, social entrepreneur, professional, job seeker...you may say to yourself I cannot do this or that because I have never done it, I do not have the experiences, I do not know any body, Who am I? Who will listen to me...you might have many negative thoughts about yourself, as long as you have those thoughts that were you stand, that's who you are, that's what define you. But once you say to yourself: "I do not know how to do it now, but I can learn, I do not have the experiences but I am a fast learner and I willing to learn, I do not know anybody but I am willing to go out and shake hands"...you start to change your mind set and you become someone else, someone who works in your advantage instead of against you.
I may have gone out of the subject of social entrepreneur to what you have inside is who you are. We have to understand that being and entrepreneur is a long process it does not happen in a day, it is just like a child, it takes time to understand and move with confidence..just like it takes time for a baby to crawl, and walk...
I am a social entrepreneur, someone who believes that one can change his/her life by helping other change their life. But you may ask "How can you help other if you cannot even help yourself". That's where the spirit of social entrepreneur takes place. By helping other, you are helping yourself. How is it so? There are questions that you may not understand in your life, there are things that you are lacking, those are the same things that many others just like you might lack or do not understand. By helping others, you learn from others point of you, you listen to them, you try to understand why they are where they are and it helps you discover where you stand and the next steps that you can take to improve your business, your life. Basically, it is others who are helping you by talking to you and you being available to listen.
As a social entrepreneur, what motivates is the burning desire to be a part of a movement, or change. We want to change the way we live, the way we "think". What do I mean by changing the way we think.I mean, we want everybody to think that they can achieve anything they desire to. It is about what you have inside. I am sure many of you have heard or read the book "Think and grow rich", or "As a man think". Those two books focus on the mind, saying that "We are what we think". If you think you cannot guess what you will not be able to, until you change your mind set and realize that you can. You can do it all, We can accomplish it all, we just have to change the mind set of cannot,and switch it to the "Yes I can". You might be an entrepreneur, social entrepreneur, professional, job seeker...you may say to yourself I cannot do this or that because I have never done it, I do not have the experiences, I do not know any body, Who am I? Who will listen to me...you might have many negative thoughts about yourself, as long as you have those thoughts that were you stand, that's who you are, that's what define you. But once you say to yourself: "I do not know how to do it now, but I can learn, I do not have the experiences but I am a fast learner and I willing to learn, I do not know anybody but I am willing to go out and shake hands"...you start to change your mind set and you become someone else, someone who works in your advantage instead of against you.
I may have gone out of the subject of social entrepreneur to what you have inside is who you are. We have to understand that being and entrepreneur is a long process it does not happen in a day, it is just like a child, it takes time to understand and move with confidence..just like it takes time for a baby to crawl, and walk...
Friday, October 1, 2010
No matter how low you may feel inside...
It is all up to you to lift up your spirit, and believe in the NOW. We all face different issues in our daily lives. Rarely do we see the good in the difficulties. It is said in the problem lies the solution. It is easy to say than to believe. But really, why is it easier to relate with anybody through pain rather than through happiness. Is it because we feel more pain than happiness or is it because it is easier to acknowledge the pain than the moment of happiness?
Pain, suffering, fear, anxiety, I just hate those feeling that stop human being from being alive and themselves. The more we are in this state of mind, the more nothing is done, the more we feel confused. Why do we have to be afraid? why do we give more importance to sadness compare to happiness.
I do not know and I always wonder why sometime it is easier for me to let fear take over me rather than courage, confidence. When I know that it is through confidence and courage that all is created. The problem is fear, the solution is confidence. In the problem lies the solution. The problem is confusion, the solution is clarity of mind.
Be determined, Be confident,Be courageous, Believe in yourself. No matter what you do it takes time, just like it take time for a tree to grow, a child to become an adult. But always remember this there is a beginning for everything and an end to everything. No matter the difficulty that you are facing today there will be an end to it, just do what you have to, believe in yourself and hold on to this dream of yours. It is not easy but the reward is...I do not know what the reward looks like, but I see my dream, I see what it looks like and I am happy...And I say the reward is HAPPINESS...Who doesn't desire happiness, we all do!!!Believe anyway you have nothing to lose but all to gain. Life is a win win situation.
Pain, suffering, fear, anxiety, I just hate those feeling that stop human being from being alive and themselves. The more we are in this state of mind, the more nothing is done, the more we feel confused. Why do we have to be afraid? why do we give more importance to sadness compare to happiness.
I do not know and I always wonder why sometime it is easier for me to let fear take over me rather than courage, confidence. When I know that it is through confidence and courage that all is created. The problem is fear, the solution is confidence. In the problem lies the solution. The problem is confusion, the solution is clarity of mind.
Be determined, Be confident,Be courageous, Believe in yourself. No matter what you do it takes time, just like it take time for a tree to grow, a child to become an adult. But always remember this there is a beginning for everything and an end to everything. No matter the difficulty that you are facing today there will be an end to it, just do what you have to, believe in yourself and hold on to this dream of yours. It is not easy but the reward is...I do not know what the reward looks like, but I see my dream, I see what it looks like and I am happy...And I say the reward is HAPPINESS...Who doesn't desire happiness, we all do!!!Believe anyway you have nothing to lose but all to gain. Life is a win win situation.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Femmes africaines-Aimez-vous vous-même?
Qu'est-ce que je veux dire par là? Comment vous valoriser vous? Est ce que vous vous aimez?
Les femmes sont l'essence de la vie par les femmes la vie est créé et la vie est un cadeau et un cadeau est un geste d'amour.
Si les femmes avaient conscience de qui elles étaient, elles pourraient créer des miracles dans leur vie. Vous devez savoir que vous etes belle, vous etes intelligente, et vous devez avoir confiance en vous, vous devez vous sentir belle, vous devez vous sentir intelligente.
C'est une chose de savoir et c’est une autre chose que de resentir.
Vous ne devriez pas attendre que quelqu'un vous dise qui vous êtes, vous devriez être capable de vous regarder dans le miroir et voir la beauté en vous, la confiance en vous et la resentir. Vous devez comprendre que tout commence à l'intérieur avant de pouvoir briller dans votre vie. Si vous vous sentez misérable intérieurement cela se voit à l'extérieur. Si vous vous sentez belle à l'intérieur cela se montre à l'extérieur. Femmes, vous êtes responsable de tout dans votre vie, à commencer par vos propre sentiments. Personne ne peut vous rendre heureuse, mais vous. Personne ne peut vous rendre belle, mais vous.
Commencer a vous aimex avant de pouvoir chercher l'amour. Commencez à vous nourrir avant de nourrir tout le monde.
African Women- Do you Love yourself?
What do I mean by that? How do you value yourself? Do you love yourself?
Women are the essence of Life through women life is created and Life is a gift, and a gift is a gesture of Love.
If women were conscious of who they were, they could create miracle in their life. You have to know that you are beautiful, you are intelligent, and you have to feel confident, you have to feel beautiful, you have to feel intelligent.
It is one thing to know and another thing to feel.
You should not wait for anyone to tell you who you are, you should be able to look at yourself in the mirror and see the beauty within you, the confidence within you and feel it. You have to understand that it all starts from within before it can shine in your life. If you feel miserable inside it shows outside. If you feel beautiful inside it shows outside. Women, you are responsible for everything in your life, starting with your own feeling. No one can make you happy, but you. No one can make you beautiful but you.
Starts Loving yourself before you can look for Love. Start nurturing yourself before nurturing anyone else.
To learn more go on lulu.com “A Life of Elegance” by Akouassi Yao
Les femmes Mon Inspiration
Les femmes sont l'essence de la vie de par les femmes la vie est créé. La vie est un cadeau et les femmes ont le pouvoir de donner le don de vie. En donnant le pouvoir aux femmes, nous créons un monde d'amour et de paix. La principale préoccupation des femmes est de donner le don de l'amour. Comme il est dit nous sommes nos pensees. Les femmes pensent a l'amour en permanence. Elles donnent de l'amour à tous dans leur vie non pas parce qu'elles veulent recevoir de l'amour, mais parce qu'elles saivent que c'est la bonne chose à faire. Toute personne qui donne sans aucune attente pour recevoir reçoit toujours dans l'abondance sans rien demander. Les femmes donnent Amour inconditionnel à tous, sa principale préoccupation n'est pas même son bien-être, mais le bien-être de ceux qu'elle aime. Elles prennent soin de leur enfants qu'elles ont porté dans leur entraille, protégé, nourri et aime de la conception à la naissance. Elle s'occupe de sa mère qui lui donne Amour inconditionnel, son père qui la protège, son mari, qui lui donne cet amour dont elle a besoin pour se sentir désirable.
Les femmes sont l'essence de vie. Les femmes sont la création de l'Amour.
Donnons le pouvoir a toutes les femmes pour une meilleure vie, un meilleure aujourd'hui et un avenir meilleur.
Les femmes sont l'essence de vie. Les femmes sont la création de l'Amour.
Donnons le pouvoir a toutes les femmes pour une meilleure vie, un meilleure aujourd'hui et un avenir meilleur.
African Women- My Inspiration
Women are the essence of Life through women life is created. Life is a gift and women have the power to give the gift of Life. Bu giving power to women we create a World of Love and Peace. The main concern of women is to give the gift of Love. As it is said we are what we think. Women think of Love constantly. She gives love to all in her life not because she wants to receive Love but because she knows that is the right thing to do. Every person who gives without any expectations to receive always receives in abundance without asking for anything. Women give unconditional Love to all, her main concern is not even her well being but the well being of those she Loves. She cares for her child that she has carried in her womb, protected, fed and Love from the conception to the birth. She cares for her mother who gives her unconditional Love, her father who protects her, her husband who gives her that Love she needs to feel desirable.
Women are the Essence of Life. Women are creating Love.
Let’s Empower every women for a better Life, a better Today and a better Tomorrow.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Feed the soul and the spirit
It is said that we are what we read, and we are what we think. Imagine a situation in your life experience where you wanted something very bad and started to think of ways on how to get it. The obsession was in you, you were so obsess by what you wanted to have that it became you. How did it become you? It became you by the thoughts that you had, the thoughts that you were developing in your subconscious. There is a saying that goes like this: “"You are what your deep, driving desire is. As your desire is, so is your will. As your will is, so is your deed. As your deed is, so is your destiny."
– Brihadaranyaka Upanishad
It all starts with a thought and the rest unfold naturally.
As human being our first preoccupation is to feed our body. We feed our body with different type of foods depending on what we like, where we live and were we are from. It varies a lot. But we all nurture something that we have the same way no matter where we are from, where we live, either we are male or female, black or white. We feed our soul the same way, through the invisible. The invisible is something that cannot be seen with the human eyes but can be sensed by our feelings. We feel sad when we nourish ourselves with pain, resentment, we feel happy when nourish ourselves with joy, laughter. This type of nourishment is done by all of us, all around the world and no matter our religions affiliation, belief and so forth and so on.
Feeding our body permit us to stay healthy, alive, and energetic. Feeding our soul allows us to discover who we truly are, and what we truly want. How come very few people feed their soul and spirit? Is it because very few people want to know who they are and what they truly want? What is it to feed our soul and our spirit?
It depends on our belief system, some people pray, some meditate, some have their own rituals. Feeding the soul is to give to the soul the necessary words needed to feel happy, content, hopeful, fearless, determined, awaken, alive, enlighten.
Let’s go back to the thing that you want. The more you feed yourself with idea of wanting something the more you nourish that idea of wanting and believing in it.
A very simple example is this, the summer is here, and it is very hot and dry outside. You feel the heat all over your body, you are sweating, you are losing the water in your body, and your tongue and lips start to feel dry, you almost out of saliva. You start to feel thirsty. What will be the first thing that will come to your mind? Cold drink, you will start to imagine this bottle of cold drink, fresh out of the fridge with drips of water all over the bottle. You will feel the bottle in your hand and your hand will feel wet by the touch of this bottle. Your imagination will start to go wild and your tongue will start to feel moist, and in need of water. At this moment you become your thoughts, you become thirsty and in need of refreshment. Your instinct will be to drink something. Your body needs something, you listen to it and you give it the exact thing that it asks for.
What about your soul and your spirit, do you listen to your soul when it talks to you? Do you respond? And is it satisfied of the answer? How do you know your soul is satisfied and fulfilled?
It is by listening to our thoughts, to our conscience. In my opinion conscience is something that we cannot explain. Con-Science, “science” tries to explain everything and the “con” represents the opposite. So conscience is the opposition in wanting to explain everything. By listening to your conscience you become aware of what you cannot explain, your feelings. By becoming aware of your feelings and your thoughts you give yourself permission to discover, explore those thoughts and feelings, just like you gave yourself permission to explore the reason why your mouth was dry because you needed water.
Your soul might thirsty right now, what are you waiting for to give the right nutrient to your soul?
– Brihadaranyaka Upanishad
It all starts with a thought and the rest unfold naturally.
As human being our first preoccupation is to feed our body. We feed our body with different type of foods depending on what we like, where we live and were we are from. It varies a lot. But we all nurture something that we have the same way no matter where we are from, where we live, either we are male or female, black or white. We feed our soul the same way, through the invisible. The invisible is something that cannot be seen with the human eyes but can be sensed by our feelings. We feel sad when we nourish ourselves with pain, resentment, we feel happy when nourish ourselves with joy, laughter. This type of nourishment is done by all of us, all around the world and no matter our religions affiliation, belief and so forth and so on.
Feeding our body permit us to stay healthy, alive, and energetic. Feeding our soul allows us to discover who we truly are, and what we truly want. How come very few people feed their soul and spirit? Is it because very few people want to know who they are and what they truly want? What is it to feed our soul and our spirit?
It depends on our belief system, some people pray, some meditate, some have their own rituals. Feeding the soul is to give to the soul the necessary words needed to feel happy, content, hopeful, fearless, determined, awaken, alive, enlighten.
Let’s go back to the thing that you want. The more you feed yourself with idea of wanting something the more you nourish that idea of wanting and believing in it.
A very simple example is this, the summer is here, and it is very hot and dry outside. You feel the heat all over your body, you are sweating, you are losing the water in your body, and your tongue and lips start to feel dry, you almost out of saliva. You start to feel thirsty. What will be the first thing that will come to your mind? Cold drink, you will start to imagine this bottle of cold drink, fresh out of the fridge with drips of water all over the bottle. You will feel the bottle in your hand and your hand will feel wet by the touch of this bottle. Your imagination will start to go wild and your tongue will start to feel moist, and in need of water. At this moment you become your thoughts, you become thirsty and in need of refreshment. Your instinct will be to drink something. Your body needs something, you listen to it and you give it the exact thing that it asks for.
What about your soul and your spirit, do you listen to your soul when it talks to you? Do you respond? And is it satisfied of the answer? How do you know your soul is satisfied and fulfilled?
It is by listening to our thoughts, to our conscience. In my opinion conscience is something that we cannot explain. Con-Science, “science” tries to explain everything and the “con” represents the opposite. So conscience is the opposition in wanting to explain everything. By listening to your conscience you become aware of what you cannot explain, your feelings. By becoming aware of your feelings and your thoughts you give yourself permission to discover, explore those thoughts and feelings, just like you gave yourself permission to explore the reason why your mouth was dry because you needed water.
Your soul might thirsty right now, what are you waiting for to give the right nutrient to your soul?
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Chapter one
I have to change my life
I deserve better
I was meant to live a full life, a happy life
I deserve to be happy
I deserve to be wealthy
I deserve a wealthy lifestyle
It is a journey in fulfilling everything that life has to offer:
· Happiness
· Wealth
· Health
· Harmony
· Everything
The Universe is my limit
But things that we desire and deserve do not come easily. We have to believe, at least that’s what “THEY” say. Believing that tomorrow will be “the day”. The day to be driving the car that we always dream of, the day we will have this successful career or business that we longed for, the day we will say, YES I MADE IT”. Yes I have realized my dream; I am living the life that is mine, the life that I deserve. The day we will thank the Lord for the support that was always here with us, throughout the journey. Thank the Lord for uplifting us when we were down and did not believe anymore. Thank the Lord for opening our eyes and making us see the end of the tunnel. The day we will be proud of what we have accomplished, the decision that we have made, the step that we have decided to take, even though people were telling us to do the opposite. The day, the day…
Klanman was on her bed, starring at the ceiling, her mind was empty, for the first time she was not thinking about her financial obligation; she was on her bed, and her mind was empty. Everything was white, plain white, just like the color of the ceiling in her tiny bedroom. Klanman had been living in Uncle Sam’s country for five years now. Five years far from her hometown, far from her parents, her friends. She had a new life here in this tiny city that she really loved. She was not sad because she was lonely, she was not sad because she was far from her friends and family. She was not sad at all. She was neither sad nor happy. But she was confused, disoriented by life. She could not understand “what was the meaning of this life that she had “chosen” to live”.
Klanman was originally from a beautiful country on the west coast of Africa. She had this great opportunity to come and study abroad. A dream that many people, back where she is from, have in their heart.
Her phone started to ring. She looked at the caller ID and said:
-“Him…what does he want from me now”
-“Hello” silence. The male voice said
-“Yes, what’s up? She asks
The voice on the other line to reply:
-“I am fine where you asleep?”
-“If I was asleep. No, I was not”
-“Is it a bad time for me to call? Would want me to call back?
It was him the man that she has known since she has been in this country, her “boyfriend” when he wanted her to be his “girlfriend”. It was a relationship with more breakups than makeups. At this point she was used to it, she did not try to get out of the relationship but she did not try to make it work either.
-Hum…what do you want? She said
-I was wondering if I could stop by?
-Stop by for what, have you forgotten something here?
-No (silence) I just wanted to…
-You just wanted to what?
-Anyway, I will call you back. You seemed to need some space
-So you talk for me now, is that it? So now you know when I need some space, and when I don’t. Listen what do you want?
-I will call you back. He replied.
-What you mean you will call back? Why did you want to stop by here? Because you wanted to stop by, isn’t it?
- Klanman, listnen I call you back, I have another call on the other line.
- You full of it, you. You call me and now you want to hang up because you have another line. Anyway as it suits you. Please do not call me anymore.
He hang up, and she looked at her phone and said to herself;
-“Really he hung up! Hum!”
That was her relationship, they were always arguing. Most of the time she was the one initiating the arguments. Why did she do that? She needed to be heard, to be love, to be held. But never was she held, loved, heard by this man and by any other man.
I need to do something. Get out of this house. I need to call someone. She looked at her cell phone, the last number she dialed was his. Most of the number she dialed was his. Most of the phone calls she had received were his. She sat on the bed and waited. She waited for what, she knew but she did not want to face it. She was waiting for his call. It has been three minutes and he has not called back yet. Who was it talking to?
She was a graduate student, she had an acceptable job in one of the well-known investment company in the place, she did not depend on anybody financially, but emotionally, she was helpless in front of the men.
“Why wasn’t he calling me back” was the only thing she could think of. She looked at her phone once again and hit the talk button. The phone started to ring. Once, twice, three times no answer. She called back, no answer, she was infuriated at that point. She did not want to leave any voice message since she knew he would not listen to it. She decided to text him, but it takes too long to type and what she had to say was too long. She dialed his number again. Finally, he picked up.
-Why didn’t you answer? She said.
-I told you I had another call on the other line
-So that’s why you could not answer my phone call?
- Klanman…he said with a laugh.
- What so funny? Anyway didn’t you say you would stop by? And once again she falls back to where she had wanted to leave for so long. She wanted to leave him but every time she tells him it was over she runs back after him. “What is wrong with me” she thoughts
- Klanman are you listening?
- What, what did you say?
- I cannot come now I have some errands that I need to be taken care of.
She hung up without a word. Everything seemed dark, cold, she was cold, and she wanted to wrap herself in her bed but could not get herself to lie down on her bed. “What is wrong with me” was the only thing she could think about.
“Please GOD help me” was the first thing she said out loud. “Ask, believe and you shall receive”.
Her phone rang; she jumped to pick it up, hoping it was him. No it was her best friend.
-Hey! Jeanine what’s up? Klanman said
- I have been trying to call you for hours but it did not go through. Those phone cards. Are you there?
- Yes.
- What’s wrong? Is that him again? You will be better of without him. You broke up with him just yesterday right? Are you ok?
- Hum!Yes. I guess.
- You will be all right.
- I know. But when, I have no idea. I am sorry, how are you over there in Paris?
- I am fine. It is not about me now. It is about you. Are you sure you are fine?
- I am not, but what can I do. Keep on crying, lamenting myself.
- You can talk to me.
- I know. You have always been here for me. You are so great. I really miss you. If you were here I would feel better.
- I am here on the phone. Don’t cry
- I cannot hold it anymore. It is too much.
- I know.
- What did he say when you told him it was over?
- Hum!…nothing. He said ok. Can I spend the night?
Jeannie laughed
-Don’t laugh. Please, it is not funny.
-I am not laughing at you. You know that. Right. It is just that I am trying to imagine what went through his mind and he said that.
-Hum… Do I know? I have to go I call you back.
-Ok. You will be fine trust me and call me.
She decided to take a walk. It had never occurred to her to take a walk, but with no reason she wore her shoes and went outside for a walk. It was a beautiful summer Sunday afternoon. People were out riding their bike, walking on the street, driving their cars with the windows down and the music loud. “Should I go left or right?” She had no clue. She turned right and walked for an hour.
She got home; she took a shower and slept. He called but she did not answer.
I deserve better
I was meant to live a full life, a happy life
I deserve to be happy
I deserve to be wealthy
I deserve a wealthy lifestyle
It is a journey in fulfilling everything that life has to offer:
· Happiness
· Wealth
· Health
· Harmony
· Everything
The Universe is my limit
But things that we desire and deserve do not come easily. We have to believe, at least that’s what “THEY” say. Believing that tomorrow will be “the day”. The day to be driving the car that we always dream of, the day we will have this successful career or business that we longed for, the day we will say, YES I MADE IT”. Yes I have realized my dream; I am living the life that is mine, the life that I deserve. The day we will thank the Lord for the support that was always here with us, throughout the journey. Thank the Lord for uplifting us when we were down and did not believe anymore. Thank the Lord for opening our eyes and making us see the end of the tunnel. The day we will be proud of what we have accomplished, the decision that we have made, the step that we have decided to take, even though people were telling us to do the opposite. The day, the day…
Klanman was on her bed, starring at the ceiling, her mind was empty, for the first time she was not thinking about her financial obligation; she was on her bed, and her mind was empty. Everything was white, plain white, just like the color of the ceiling in her tiny bedroom. Klanman had been living in Uncle Sam’s country for five years now. Five years far from her hometown, far from her parents, her friends. She had a new life here in this tiny city that she really loved. She was not sad because she was lonely, she was not sad because she was far from her friends and family. She was not sad at all. She was neither sad nor happy. But she was confused, disoriented by life. She could not understand “what was the meaning of this life that she had “chosen” to live”.
Klanman was originally from a beautiful country on the west coast of Africa. She had this great opportunity to come and study abroad. A dream that many people, back where she is from, have in their heart.
Her phone started to ring. She looked at the caller ID and said:
-“Him…what does he want from me now”
-“Hello” silence. The male voice said
-“Yes, what’s up? She asks
The voice on the other line to reply:
-“I am fine where you asleep?”
-“If I was asleep. No, I was not”
-“Is it a bad time for me to call? Would want me to call back?
It was him the man that she has known since she has been in this country, her “boyfriend” when he wanted her to be his “girlfriend”. It was a relationship with more breakups than makeups. At this point she was used to it, she did not try to get out of the relationship but she did not try to make it work either.
-Hum…what do you want? She said
-I was wondering if I could stop by?
-Stop by for what, have you forgotten something here?
-No (silence) I just wanted to…
-You just wanted to what?
-Anyway, I will call you back. You seemed to need some space
-So you talk for me now, is that it? So now you know when I need some space, and when I don’t. Listen what do you want?
-I will call you back. He replied.
-What you mean you will call back? Why did you want to stop by here? Because you wanted to stop by, isn’t it?
- Klanman, listnen I call you back, I have another call on the other line.
- You full of it, you. You call me and now you want to hang up because you have another line. Anyway as it suits you. Please do not call me anymore.
He hang up, and she looked at her phone and said to herself;
-“Really he hung up! Hum!”
That was her relationship, they were always arguing. Most of the time she was the one initiating the arguments. Why did she do that? She needed to be heard, to be love, to be held. But never was she held, loved, heard by this man and by any other man.
I need to do something. Get out of this house. I need to call someone. She looked at her cell phone, the last number she dialed was his. Most of the number she dialed was his. Most of the phone calls she had received were his. She sat on the bed and waited. She waited for what, she knew but she did not want to face it. She was waiting for his call. It has been three minutes and he has not called back yet. Who was it talking to?
She was a graduate student, she had an acceptable job in one of the well-known investment company in the place, she did not depend on anybody financially, but emotionally, she was helpless in front of the men.
“Why wasn’t he calling me back” was the only thing she could think of. She looked at her phone once again and hit the talk button. The phone started to ring. Once, twice, three times no answer. She called back, no answer, she was infuriated at that point. She did not want to leave any voice message since she knew he would not listen to it. She decided to text him, but it takes too long to type and what she had to say was too long. She dialed his number again. Finally, he picked up.
-Why didn’t you answer? She said.
-I told you I had another call on the other line
-So that’s why you could not answer my phone call?
- Klanman…he said with a laugh.
- What so funny? Anyway didn’t you say you would stop by? And once again she falls back to where she had wanted to leave for so long. She wanted to leave him but every time she tells him it was over she runs back after him. “What is wrong with me” she thoughts
- Klanman are you listening?
- What, what did you say?
- I cannot come now I have some errands that I need to be taken care of.
She hung up without a word. Everything seemed dark, cold, she was cold, and she wanted to wrap herself in her bed but could not get herself to lie down on her bed. “What is wrong with me” was the only thing she could think about.
“Please GOD help me” was the first thing she said out loud. “Ask, believe and you shall receive”.
Her phone rang; she jumped to pick it up, hoping it was him. No it was her best friend.
-Hey! Jeanine what’s up? Klanman said
- I have been trying to call you for hours but it did not go through. Those phone cards. Are you there?
- Yes.
- What’s wrong? Is that him again? You will be better of without him. You broke up with him just yesterday right? Are you ok?
- Hum!Yes. I guess.
- You will be all right.
- I know. But when, I have no idea. I am sorry, how are you over there in Paris?
- I am fine. It is not about me now. It is about you. Are you sure you are fine?
- I am not, but what can I do. Keep on crying, lamenting myself.
- You can talk to me.
- I know. You have always been here for me. You are so great. I really miss you. If you were here I would feel better.
- I am here on the phone. Don’t cry
- I cannot hold it anymore. It is too much.
- I know.
- What did he say when you told him it was over?
- Hum!…nothing. He said ok. Can I spend the night?
Jeannie laughed
-Don’t laugh. Please, it is not funny.
-I am not laughing at you. You know that. Right. It is just that I am trying to imagine what went through his mind and he said that.
-Hum… Do I know? I have to go I call you back.
-Ok. You will be fine trust me and call me.
She decided to take a walk. It had never occurred to her to take a walk, but with no reason she wore her shoes and went outside for a walk. It was a beautiful summer Sunday afternoon. People were out riding their bike, walking on the street, driving their cars with the windows down and the music loud. “Should I go left or right?” She had no clue. She turned right and walked for an hour.
She got home; she took a shower and slept. He called but she did not answer.
Introduction
Who are we? Who am I? Have you ever asked yourself this question? If not lay on your back and ask yourself…. Who am I? Why am I here?
We are black, light skin, dark skin. We are woman, we are mother, we are wife, we are daughter, we are sister, and we are auntie. We are part of the Universe.
We all have a dream, big or small. Dreaming is part of human being, Dreaming is Life.
The intensity of the dream depends on the beholder of the dreamer. A dream in my opinion is GOD talking to us, conversing with us through images that we have while being asleep, or awake. You know what, God is always talking to us, and we should always listen.
A dream can stay a dream as long as we choose to, or it can manifest itself in our lives if we decide to pursuit it. It is all a matter of choice. Choice. Choice. Choice.
We all have a potential, a potential to change our lives, our relationships with others. We have the potential to change our perception of life; we have the choice to live an amazing life. Everything is up to us. We have the power to see big, to see beyond our imagination and realized our deepest dream. We have the power to plant the seed of potentiality.
Life is like a Jigsaw puzzle without any picture to guide us. Just like life, we do not know where we are heading but we know that we have to move to create something.
Life is about taking the first step and the rest will unfold. We need to keep the end in mind. Stay focus and keep the end in mind.
We are our own architects; we are building the perfect house. The perfect life, the perfect dream. It takes time determination and courage to build a wonderful house, just like it takes time, determination and courage to believe, follow and fulfill a dream. One step at the time, one foot in front of the other. Slowly but surely.
Let’s EMPOWER OURSELVES, let’s our imagination take the lead of our life and see where it is going to take us. Let’s discover the Goddess that lies within us and awaken our true SELF.
It is said that most of us are born asleep; most of us live asleep, and get married asleep. Basically we live our life asleep. We are dormant soul with no purpose, no vision. Guest what? With no vision, no purpose we cannot get very far. Just like a car with an empty tank. Let’s awaken our soul and listen to what the Self has to say. Be still and listen. God is talking to us.
We are black, light skin, dark skin. We are woman, we are mother, we are wife, we are daughter, we are sister, and we are auntie. We are part of the Universe.
We all have a dream, big or small. Dreaming is part of human being, Dreaming is Life.
The intensity of the dream depends on the beholder of the dreamer. A dream in my opinion is GOD talking to us, conversing with us through images that we have while being asleep, or awake. You know what, God is always talking to us, and we should always listen.
A dream can stay a dream as long as we choose to, or it can manifest itself in our lives if we decide to pursuit it. It is all a matter of choice. Choice. Choice. Choice.
We all have a potential, a potential to change our lives, our relationships with others. We have the potential to change our perception of life; we have the choice to live an amazing life. Everything is up to us. We have the power to see big, to see beyond our imagination and realized our deepest dream. We have the power to plant the seed of potentiality.
Life is like a Jigsaw puzzle without any picture to guide us. Just like life, we do not know where we are heading but we know that we have to move to create something.
Life is about taking the first step and the rest will unfold. We need to keep the end in mind. Stay focus and keep the end in mind.
We are our own architects; we are building the perfect house. The perfect life, the perfect dream. It takes time determination and courage to build a wonderful house, just like it takes time, determination and courage to believe, follow and fulfill a dream. One step at the time, one foot in front of the other. Slowly but surely.
Let’s EMPOWER OURSELVES, let’s our imagination take the lead of our life and see where it is going to take us. Let’s discover the Goddess that lies within us and awaken our true SELF.
It is said that most of us are born asleep; most of us live asleep, and get married asleep. Basically we live our life asleep. We are dormant soul with no purpose, no vision. Guest what? With no vision, no purpose we cannot get very far. Just like a car with an empty tank. Let’s awaken our soul and listen to what the Self has to say. Be still and listen. God is talking to us.
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